Being Frustrated Might Be A Good Sign.
Being an artist demands emotional courage. A lot of it. Whether you are painting a picture developing a new sales plan or just trying to figure out what color to paint your child's bedroom, figuring out what you want to do can be a hard decision to make -- especially if you have a few choices that all seem interesting.
What makes the entire decision making process so frustrating and complex is that as an artist you want to feel inspired by what you're doing.
You want to feel that the decision you are making matters -- that your choice has the chance to deliver magic.
That's deeply personal. You don't want to screw that up.
Delivering that level of experience and wonderment with a single choice and follow-up action can make it difficult for you to make a choice.
There are some who will tell you that getting things done is good enough. That making more money is reward all by itself.
But what if you aren't motivated by money or awards. What if you just want to feel like you matter? What if you just want to be needed? Then, decisions for you matter. And the frustration you feel is exactly what you need to be feeling right now.
Because doing big things demands big investment.
You shouldn't back down from the emotional burden of deliberation and strategy, planning, preparing, and processing. Creating art demands inspiration. It requires chaos, fear of failure, and drama.
The beauty that you will eventually create is rooted in the uncertainty you feel right now.
Be tough enough to stick it out. Ask yourself the hard questions about what you want to do and where you want to go. It's important to deliberate on those decisions for yourself.
Don't give into the trap of copying what someone else is doing.
Anyone can go through the motions. To create awe is a challenge all by itself.
Don't stop struggling. It will be worth it when you win.