Why I Fight…

 

As I have mentioned in my previous posts, I am training toward a fighting event in a few months. When I first mentioned to my peers and friends that this was something that I was attempting to do, I received noticeably different reactions.

Some of my peers thought that I was (and still am...) crazy! I don't know that I disagree with them. Frankly, I have some doubts myself about the sanity of putting myself in such a position (but not enough to call off the whole thing).

A few of my friends suggested that this was pretty cool.  BUT most of them think I will back-out before the event occurs (and that certainly is a possibility)...

SO... I wanted to explain WHY I am fighting....

I think it is much more complex than the raw machismo with which some would label this.  In fact, in spite of being cognizant that I need to have a positive head-game to win, I actually do not believe that I will win.

The odds... are certainly not in my favor...  (Then again, that understanding might be the fuel that powers this current obsession.)

Let me keep it simple:

"I fight because I need to know if I can..." (DEWism)

I need to know one more time that I have the will NOT just to win BUT to endeavor...

This might seem remarkably naive...  But it is about the only way to describe how I feel.

I wear a suit to work and strategize over multi-million dollar business deals when inside I feel like I should be in an arena with Russel Crowe fighting gladiator-style -- its almost primeval in nature...

That's how I feel....

I fight because there is more of my part of the world that I need to conquer...

I believe that you have never truly won if you have never been through the pain of bodily challenge -- the exhaustion that marks the end of willful human capacity -- and emerged victorious over self and surroundings...

Business like athletics is a challenge of how hard we will push our ourselves... I win in the future because i fight today...  And so, because winning requires fighting... I fight!

"Pain, discomfort, fatigue, failure - These are maturation processes that fuel the confidence of tomorrow's endeavors..." (DEWism)