FIGHT or FLIGHT…right now…

 
As I sit here, amidst paperwork, unfinished tasks, and (7) finished RockStar energy drinks, I am reminded that despite all the books, "head games", and motivational theory I have learned I still am fighting the urge to run away from the the enormous stress that I am living through right now...

Walking through the office I have phone calls popping in my ears like fireworks as clients call me angry at our lack of performance. I have to literally push down my desire to run away...like swallowing throw-up as you feel it rise in the back of your throat.

This is a cognizance of conquest -- of understanding that I could walk away, of understanding that I want to walk away, of understanding that despite the pain of this current situation I will NOT walk away.

I will fight! I may lose -- and certainly the odds are not in my favor -- but I will fight!